sometimes I wonder what I was thinking...

I must admit, there are times that I sit and think, "what was I thinking, doing this website and going back into bowling..." Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it all. But some of my experiences have me really shaking my head and asking myself, "why?"

The fiasco that was last Thursday carried over to the weekend. I'm not going to go into great detail here as the whole thing is insufferably boring to most. But generally, it's caused me to rethink my position on some groups of people in general. This is not to say I plan on turning my back on the entire world, going it alone and becoming an island. But it is to say that I plan on making doubly sure future acquaintances, friends, teammates, well wishers, etc. can actually be trusted. I hate having to be as guarded as I apparently have to be, but the world is showing me that my friendly nature no longer fits within it.

I have great friends in candlepin...and you all know who you are! And I need to keep those friends crowded around me so as to create a new comfort zone. All this controversy and shouting, yelling and aggressive behavior by others has really raised my eyebrows and, on some level, frightened me.

Politics great...stakes small...yeah, that makes sense. I just wish others would understand that, too.