almost only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades
So, I just got off the phone with the head hunting agency that is "helping" me in my job search. According to them, I'm more than likely not going to be employed with Xavier in the fall. The principal is wary on my experience, saying I don't have enough. Apparently, while I'm strong enough in terms of leadership skills, he'd be worried about my academic skills. I call that a poor excuse--my transcripts and my references show I'm quite skilled academically. Guess they found someone better.
This is a horrendous blow. I really felt good coming out of that interview, thinking that I was well liked. That feeling was evidently wrong. So, now I'm back to "square one" with no prospects.
As I sit here and type, I believe my degree is worthless. I have a B.S.Ed. and a CT license to teach elementary education. Yet that won't even get me interviewed at Aetna or Comcast, let alone a classroom. And gee, it's awfully nice that Wethersfield sent me that personal form letter, telling me that I'm "assured of substitute employment" for the fall. But I didn't go through 4-years of college to be a per diem sub. Ugh.
These notions beg the question, "what exactly am I good for?" Four years of college, a teaching license and a long list of skills, and the best I can do is a job selling cars or working at Macy's? This really isn't the way things were supposed to turn out, were they? Wow. Truly, I'm hoping dear old Dad isn't looking down at his son right now. I'm very sure he'd be horribly disappointed in me if he did.
Happily, bowling seems to be going well...at least I can to that, eh? And my town's fireworks show is tonight, so that'll be fun. I can watch my son enjoy himself. He's so full of optimism and hope for the future--he wants to work with animals and science. Smart kid, that boy. I'm glad he's interested in things that he can be free pursue on his own or in a formal setting. Granted at 9-years old, he'll probably change his mind a few times, but he seems to be like me. He wants to change the world...or at least a small part of it.
The problem with that is, the world doesn't change--at least not overnight or without the help of others.
I want to teach...any ideas?
