Best of times, worst of times...and a few thoughts thrown in...

Today was one of those days that was the best and worst of times.  You know, when something really lousy goes on, sending you home feeling down...only to be uplifted by something really cool later in the day. 

To say we got clobbered today is an understatement.  The Rock Cats managed 4 hits, no runs and two errors while giving up 10 runs on 11 hits.  We gave up EIGHT stolen bases, too.  Oh yeah, and the guy who was supposed to start the game was suspended by MLB for 50 games for violating the league substance abuse policy by testing positive for a "substance of abuse."  What that means is the rocket scientist who tested positive wasn't using steroids, he was using recreational drugs.  No word on exactly what drug was found in his system.  Not good times.

But going home, our Red Sox came back to beat the Evil Empire today, 7-5.  I love it when the Olde Towne Team sticks it to the Yankees!  Very nice. 

Tomorrow brings another Rock Cats game and bowling night in Monson.  This league is a couple of weeks behind due to weather and other issues that forced us to postpone a few weeks (not to mention taking two weeks off for the December holidays).  I'm looking forward to it, that's for sure. 

Yet as I was walking around the ballpark today, I had chance to have a bit of a conversation with myself, in my mind of course, regarding the website, the nastiness found in my inbox last night, and generally my place in life today.  And while my mind continues to wrangle with the notion that I'm actually controversial to someone, common sense tells me that I should really stop wrangling with that notion.  This website wasn't set forth to bring controversy and strife to my life.  It was a lark, started on a whim to give me something to do while I was unemployed.  And now, it's an addition to my enjoyment of candlepin bowling.  This blog is a diary of my experiences, a list of my thoughts and the look into the mind of a guy just bowling his way through life.  Truly, I ain't much. 

Therefore, I'm embarking upon a new direction in life.  I'm leaving behind the thoughts of "why would someone say that about me?" or "what crawled under his/her skin and died?" or "what did I do to deserve that?"  To discuss those questions with myself for more than 30 seconds or so is a waste of my time.  Why bother?  If I'm controversial to someone, I can't change that.  And I really shouldn't be bothered worrying about what people say to me (to my face or behind my back) or why some people go on the attack like they do. 

I'm doing my thing, enjoying my life...which includes an amazingly hot fiancée, a great new family, a very cool son and a long list of other nice things that I enjoy.  It's time for me to rise above the fray that is the pot stirrers and angry people (and you all know who you are!).  And that I'm doing.  The negativity has brought me down long enough, and it's time to end that...right now! 

Oh, and could someone pray for the Rock Cats?  We could really use some breaks tomorrow.  Losing 10-0 hurts, no matter how positively I'm trying to look at things!

PS...no I haven't ignored the tragedy at VT.  It's much too horrible for me to even begin to discuss here.  Therefore, please...don't email me about it anymore!  Just say a prayer for the victims and their families.